My Transition Tape Map - Walking my footsteps

On a whim I decided to walk in my footsteps before destroying the map, retracing the steps of my journey physically. It was a strange feeling to fleetingly re-experience my journey from the beginning. Walking the steady increase of hormones privately, to have to drop below the line and quite literally take a lap and go back to the beginning of referrals before the long catch up to 're-starting' hormone treatment - only to keep going further and further down the map as time crept on with no progress - it was emotional in a way I wasn't expecting.

I plan to recreate the map one more time for the show, amending where I have learnt more things in the process of creating this larger map, and I think it will be worth re-creating this 'Footsteps' section

am now considering adding this section to the show film.

I think it will be more impactful to have several minutes of a sped up version of me creating the map, my narration playing over the top talking through the steps of my journey and the individual stations, detailing my thoughts and feelings at the time. Theoretically, I think this should cover up to the point I re-referred into the NHS, at which point the Footsteps section would start - slow, real-time, of me talking through these constant delays and setbacks while watching me slowly have to walk these declining 'care' pathways.

Having a sped-up version of the creation play while discussing my experience with GenderCare will only emphasise the speed at which things happened for me, including the egg freezing which (although suggested by Dr Lorimer) was all through the NHS. Then cutting to real-time while I talk about delays, and the impact of such on my mental health and education.